Ever had a friend that you made a pack to get married to, if you were not married by a certain age?? Well I have passed two of those dead lines and had dinner with him tonite. The only difference is, he doesn't feel the same.
Dinner was sushi and conversation, wonderful conversation. Catch up on the promotion he is working on, my crazy life in the mortgage business, friends, family, politics, dating; old and new... new there is none for either of us, wish it was us...
He is my best friend and I fall for him every time I see him... wish I would have jumped on it either time he felt it for me in the past... only i was too stupid to see it. Why do we do that? It could be right in front of our face and we just don't see it until it's too late.
Well it's up to the Lord anyway:)
We were friends in high school and went to prom, calling him up anytime to meet me for dancing nights at Dillans and Gilley's with lots of kissing... one night we even slept together, only i drank entirely too much and don't remember it, it must have been horrible... UGH, I am soo mad at myself, I finally slept with him and I can't even remember it:( It needs to happen again on the right terms. Please!!!
Letters, flowers... all in the past.
He use to pick up my daughter every Friday and take her to the pool and just be great with her... only guy I ever trusted her with. I should have know then...
He deserves kids, he is so good with them and has a wonderful relationship with his family, he's perfectly ideal... it's just never been romanticly steady, you know, in a relationship, so it's never been recipicated. Always been on a roller coaster:( I am so ready to take the ride on the farris wheel together:)
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